I had so many plans for 2020 that just did not happen. It’s the last day of 2020 and I could not be happier. But what did I get out of this pandemic? How did it happen for me, what did I learn from one hell of an unexpected year? I have learned to really learn through things in life. The good and the bad and to find what it’s teaching me.
Covid taught me how to pace
2020 was not the year I had planned, imagined or hoped for. 2020 wasn’t for anyone.
But I can reflect on all I learned this year, what 2020 and living through a pandemic taught me.
It taught me to slow the eff down!
It taught me that I fail at pacing myself. This is huge in living with a brain injury.
It taught me to be content and happy with life as is right now, in the present moment. I love to travel and am so lucky to do so. I could not travel. I also could not work or volunteer so I had to find other things to keep me grounded, satisfied and happy.
I already understood how lucky I am to have my life and how fast your life can change, this was just another reminder in case I forgot.
I learned that although I have a brain injury and they say you change after you have one, and although I forgot a lot of my education and background in Public Health, I’m still very keen to it and know where to find credible information and still know right from wrong.
My husband and I have definitely gotten closer, we have each other and that’s it. We also are still learning where we fit into this life and how still even after my accident when people walked away, people still are. I mean yes there is Covid, but it doesn’t mean you can’t call or text people or FaceTime.
I have found community in places I did not have before. This has helped keep me sane.
I have reminded myself constantly that this is hard. Life is hard. Everyone reacts differently to what’s happening and I have learned just to leave it be, not be offended and not expect much.
I’m here, I’m healthy, I’m happy and I know I’m a good person and friend, I also know I’m not part of the problem and can sleep just fine at night.
I’m trying to not be judgemental, just give space and hope those I value come back eventually when life is back to normal. This has been a hard year and I am not sure it’s getting easier anytime soon.
I will do me and worry about me and my family, I will be here when others are ready. I get that it’s hard and it’s throwing everyone for a loop!
Most importantly I learned that I am beyond resilient. That all of the hard things I have gone through in my life have really prepared me for anything, this pandemic being one of those things. I’m grateful for that.
I also acknowledge that I am doing well with this isolation and Covid life because of my brain injury, who knows how I would be if I didn’t have my brain Injury. But I would like to think I would be somewhat the same since I do come from a public health background. But the brain injury definitely led me to working out at home since I don’t drive, and my Peloton has been a saving grace.