We sold my four runner. I absolutely loved this thing, we bought it brand new and built it just how we wanted it and it was amazing.
But I no longer drive. I don’t have a license. We owned the vehicle and I have no income and cannot work full time. This is the last thing we owned that is from before my accident.
We sold our house. We sold all our dirt bikes, razor, toy hauler, truck and more. This is the last thing we owned that we had pre brain injury.
So that was the hardest part about selling it. It was a huge realization of all we have had to part with because of my accident. So much loss. All material things, but still all things we had worked so hard for and were such a part of our life and who we were. We also have loss so much more than material things too. All of it is a lot and brings so much feeling. I loss the ability to do what I loved for work, I lost the ability to live life like I once did and workout as much as I loved. I lost memory and memories of my wedding and more. But I did not lose my life and I allow myself to grieve when things come up. It will be 3 years in May, all the material items are gone and we will rebuild. I still have life and we have been learning so much and we will be ok, we are ok and I know how lucky I am to have all that I have.
But change is hard. Coming to terms with all a brain injury takes from you is hard. But it also has brought so much to our lives in a weird way. Losing my vehicle and driving ability is a huge sense of loss and independence but I am so lucky to still have all I do and the abilities I have to take public transportation and walk even if walking can be limited at times.
My 4Runner officially has a new owner as it’s not on the website anymore, but whoever bought it got an amazing rig with a lot done to it and done correctly 💚