I have talked about how on the anniversary of the day I should have died, the day my life changed forever, I try to do something that is fun. Something I should not be able to do mentally or physically and something that is healthy and safe to do wether that be physically or mentally.
Year 1 I attended a weekend of counseling at Weekends in Dana Point, CA with Elyse Snipes and it was amazing, such a perfect way to spend my one year anniversary.
Year 2 I spent at our family beach house with my husband, I was supposed to be at the Love Your Brain retreat in Portland Maine but Covid happened and it will be rescheduled, but who knows when. But I was able to spend the weekend with my husband and reflect a lot.
Year 3, this year Covid is still here. I am vaccinated and I feel safe to travel since I have a low chance of getting it and can keep using distance and precautions when around others who are not vaccinated.
So this year a few weeks after 5/16 in June I am going on a Tents Without Gents retreat. I will be backpacking, hiking, camping and paddle boarding down the Green River in Labyrinth Canyon, Moab, Utah. I am so excited for this. I know I can do it, I learned I could paddle board since TBI thanks to Destination Rehab in Bend.
This trip will kick my ass. But I am confident I can do it, it will completely deplete me and exhaust me. But I’m willing to have 4 days of fun, showing myself what I am capable of even though I know it will put me down for 3-4 weeks after. When I am exhausted paddle boarding, I can sit or lay down on my board.
This is how I want to spend my 3 years, I want to do something outside, something that requires me to hold my own, push myself and being aware of what that will take and being willing to accept it all. I can’t wait to go on a backpacking trip in Moab with like minded woman. This will push me, but will show me how capable I still am.
The trip I am going on:
I am so thankful for my ability to plan well still and I have plenty of time to get it all planned. I will arrive 2 days before and stay a extra day after to unwind and relax before flying home. I have learned that’s crucial for me now.
This is not how I ever pictured exploring Moab, but this is my life now and it will be great I am sure. Old me would of wanted to be riding a dirt bike or side by siding through Moab, but this is me now and I have learned to adapt and be happy with what I still have the ability to do.
Less than 2 months until I go. When I will be in Moab is the same time I was in inpatient rehab 3 years prior. So it’s pretty amazing to be able to go to Moab and stand up paddle board 3 years later from when I spent time in an inpatient rehab learning basics again after my accident.