Toxic Positivity

Absolutely love this book I am listening too right now by a therapist. It highlights so much truth in just the 25% I am into it.

I don’t believe in toxic positivity, I don’t believe it is in gods hands and that’s my belief and it’s ok if we have different beliefs. I do not believe everything happens for a reason. I don’t believe good vibes will alter anything in my life, however I do say good vibes to people often but that’s more me thinking good thoughts and hoping for the best.

I do have optimism. I do believe that there are things in the positive realm that have truly helped me in my life like gratitude. But I do own 100% my mistakes and I do deal with things very differently than a lot of people. It’s not due to toxic positivity, it’s due to me being me and I have not always been like this. It’s me trying to find the lesson in the hard things, the good, bad, horrible and what is that situation teaching me and what can I learn from it and what can I change to not keep repeating the mistakes.

Prior to my TBI luckily I had developed this and through my TBI life it’s still there. Of course I have good and bad days. Some days I don’t know why I lived. But I did and I can see why because I have something to give, I have some people who do love me and would be devastated if I was not here. Although there are times when I don’t see that. But that’s life.

I am very open and honest. But I am just not a person that complains much so by not being someone who complains I am sure it comes off like I am just fine and my life is great. My life is good. It takes a lot for it to be good. Sacrifice, working on myself through therapy, being open and honest and communicating with my husband, removing things that I find hurt me or my mental state like social media.

This is just who I am. I try hard, I rest as needed and I work with what I have like my disability and find ways to stay involved and happy like my volunteering and entry level job. Basically a day in the life of me is not sitting here watching TV. I wish. Every day takes a lot of work and tools to be where I am and who I am and to stay functional.

This audio book I am listening too is great though so far, highly recommend.

I made this in November and thought I would share.

See I put happy down, but happy doesn’t mean I’m not lonely and sad at times. This brain and words is about how jumbled my brain feels everyday.