5 years ago my dad picked me up from jail.
My fiancé at the time was starting a new job so he surely wasn’t going to pick me up.
My fiancé was newly sober and I had went to the beach house and got a DUI.
Honestly I’m glad it happened. It was the wake up call I needed and I didn’t hurt anyone but myself.
I never touched alcohol again since that day 5 years ago. I couldn’t be more proud and happy how this went down. It truly showed me I was spending my time with the wrong people. It showed me that I could not control my drinking once I took that first sip. It truly showed me that drinking did not fit in my life. I’m educated and smart and know better, yet did stupid shit.
I will never call my dad again to pick me up after making stupid choices drinking like this, like the time he picked me up after rolling my FJ on the beach and drinking had been involved, meeting me at the hospital after I was life flighted there after drinking and riding my dirt bike and breaking my back and the list could go on.
I learn the hard way. But I learned. I don’t repeat the cycles. Sadly I thought not drinking when I rode was a good solution but truly just not drinking is the good solution for me and I am ok with that and don’t miss it.
I had often stopped drinking in my life. Never a problem to stop. The problem was that I only liked vodka masked with Red Bull, eventually I liked wine and ciders but I never could just have a drink. I drank to blackout often. I now live with a TBI where my memory sucks and I do anything I can to remember and it’s a lot of work. I did a podcast one time and she pointed out how I used to drink and have no problem not remembering but now I will do anything to remember. So true. And when I think of it like that, I am ashamed and mad that I took things like remembering for granted. I also live with a traumatic brain injury and so many people get TBIs from drunk drivers, I could not imagine doing this to someone or worst because of my decision to drink.
If you want to listen to the podcast and more of my story, it’s here:
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/sobriety-corps/id1480957649?i=1000491882536
The pic posted is from a drunken weekend in Oregon at a Country Music Festival. Super fun weekend but the pic about sums up Drunk Jessy!
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5 replies on “5 Years Ago..”
Proud of you for how far you’ve come but also being so open and sharing your journey with us!
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Thank you and hope you are well.
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Hi Jessy! Sorry I don’t mean to leave a big comment here but I think you deleted your Instagram so couldn’t message! Just wanted to give you a shout and say hello! you seem like you really have your head screwed
on with recovery and I take a lot of encouragement through your attitude, how you have mastered recovery and your sobriety. I was never an alcoholic enjoyed a drink, but had heard that alcohol was not good for recovery
so last month I decided to not drink. Only been a month but so far so good! So basically just wanted to send you a message to say you have Helped encourage me to do this so thank you very much! And I hope that in the future if you ever want to speak about recovery or anything i’m
here to listen! Hope everything is well with you and your family! Keep going with the good work 😀
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I did delete it. Sad to miss connections like you but for my mental health had to:)
I was sober a year before my TBI and honestly I could not imagine drinking with my TBI. I feel drunk daily with nothing. Congratulations on your month and doing what’s best for you, I fully believe with such severe brain injuries why not give it every chance you have to do the best you can for your brain and I believe removing alcohol is huge and it’s such a norm in society that’s also so hard but I’m glad you are doing you and I hope you can see some positives in removing it. I have ate edibles with weed in them as it’s legal here and when I have am like holy crap because of how it makes me feel.
I also think when I have it’s been a escape which I am big on dealing with my life the good and bad and being sober definitely forces you to deal with it all and living with TBI is so hard as you know so why make it harder.
Kind of like how I can tell a difference in how I feel and act based on why I eat or if I do something to much, even reading.
I love following you and am so proud of the person you are and your recovery. Someday I will make it to where you live to meet you in real life:)
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