5 years ago my dad picked me up from jail.
My fiancé at the time was starting a new job so he surely wasn’t going to pick me up.
My fiancé was newly sober and I had went to the beach house and got a DUI.
Honestly I’m glad it happened. It was the wake up call I needed and I didn’t hurt anyone but myself.
I never touched alcohol again since that day 5 years ago. I couldn’t be more proud and happy how this went down. It truly showed me I was spending my time with the wrong people. It showed me that I could not control my drinking once I took that first sip. It truly showed me that drinking did not fit in my life. I’m educated and smart and know better, yet did stupid shit.
I will never call my dad again to pick me up after making stupid choices drinking like this, like the time he picked me up after rolling my FJ on the beach and drinking had been involved, meeting me at the hospital after I was life flighted there after drinking and riding my dirt bike and breaking my back and the list could go on.
I learn the hard way. But I learned. I don’t repeat the cycles. Sadly I thought not drinking when I rode was a good solution but truly just not drinking is the good solution for me and I am ok with that and don’t miss it.
I had often stopped drinking in my life. Never a problem to stop. The problem was that I only liked vodka masked with Red Bull, eventually I liked wine and ciders but I never could just have a drink. I drank to blackout often. I now live with a TBI where my memory sucks and I do anything I can to remember and it’s a lot of work. I did a podcast one time and she pointed out how I used to drink and have no problem not remembering but now I will do anything to remember. So true. And when I think of it like that, I am ashamed and mad that I took things like remembering for granted. I also live with a traumatic brain injury and so many people get TBIs from drunk drivers, I could not imagine doing this to someone or worst because of my decision to drink.
If you want to listen to the podcast and more of my story, it’s here:
The pic posted is from a drunken weekend in Oregon at a Country Music Festival. Super fun weekend but the pic about sums up Drunk Jessy!